The divine paradox of Desire…


Desire.  One of the most powerful, evolutionary, impulses that can take a thought or an idea and morph it into existence into a tangible, result by mere passion, focus and action.

But there is another side of desire that can really turn into a lustful, obsession and create an attachment that has destructive consequences.  Such is the divine paradox.

This conversation will center around that.

So you want to buy a bigger house and it’s ok, I mean why not?  Think BIG, Right!?

You’ve set your goal, you’ve put together your plan to achieving this goal, you’ve set your intention.

A few months go by and it doesn’t happen.  That then turns into a year, so you’re thinking “I’ve got patience, it’s cool.”  Then 2 years go by, now you’re getting irritated.  3 years go by and you’re pissed.  To make matters worse, the Joneses up the street just bought a house just like it, now your Desire is in your face and you have to sit there, smile and take it.

Depression now kicks in by the 4th year and before you know it, you’ve found yourself in a state of hopelessness.

But let’s back track for a bit cause a lot of great stuff happened along the way like, you found a loving, supportive, partner, you got a promotion at your job, you made that dream trip to Bali that you longed for, cash is flowing, you’re healthy, kids are doing great, yet you say to yourself “Why don’t I have my damn, house by now? Dammit!?”

Maybe you don’t have that damn house by now, because you’d be paying out of your A** for it and starve other areas of your life in the process (sorry, every so often my fiesty, side reveals itself, can’t help it.)

Maybe it would put you in the hole financially and draw a wedge between you and your loving partner.  Maybe your current home is closer to your kids school for emergency, maybe, maybe, maybe, you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be right now.  Maybe you’re already whole, happy and complete, without it?

Stay with me, I’m about to go deep for a moment…..

You see, the reason why you “Crave”, is that you desire “Wholeness”.

Your outer perception, tells you that by acquiring that which you desire, will make you feel complete.  It is this illusory, belief that divides and separates us within from our Spirit while it robs us of joy in the present.

We have forgotten our divinity which creates a restlessness, within that you just can’t put your finger on it, and so, to quench your thirst for completeness, you find yourself pursuing things outwardly in the material realm, to satisfy your wants.  Yet it is only by merging with Spirit however, that we feel whole, complete and restored.

This is why Meditation is so important, as it’s more than just chillaxing and manifesting stuff.  It empties the mind through silence to reconnect with your divinity, your “True Self”.

And when you couple it with a “mantra”, it has the power to transform your Mind altogether.  For instance, the “mantra” that I use is “Satnam”, which means “Truth is my Identity”.  My Teacher calls it the “Philosopher’s Stone” as it has the power to restore your memory of your True identity, eradicate the Ego and shatter the illusion of separation.

I once read Deepak Chopra suggesting that we ask “Who am I?” during meditation so that we could hear the truth about who we “Really Are”.  And I gotta’ tell you, the moment I asked the question in meditation, my Teacher appeared through mere synchronicity.

I did not have to seek him in any way, he just came to me.  The student was ready and so the Master appeared.  I was ready to allow the “Real Me” to emerge.

My friends we are living in a pretty, amazing time, where we have the divine opportunity, to “Self Realize” with velocity.  And those who have the courage to devote themselves to the journey inward, will make a greater, impact as a servant to Awaken the light of the world.

Now your turn.  Need Advice?  Does this content resonate with you in any way?

Is there something in your life that you Desire that you’ve found yourself attached to?

How does it make you feel?

Please feel free to share what you’re going through in the  Comment Box of the Blog and I’ll be sure to Reply.

Always remember, that what’s for you is for you.  And you wanna know something, you won’t have to sweat for it and if you do, you may wanna reconsider.


Abby xo






Expand your light with a cleaner, diet…

Expand your light with a cleaner diet

Before I delve into this topic, let me just say that I’m not a full, “Vegan” by any way stretch, shape or form nor am a certified, Nutritionist.  Might consider becoming a “Vegan” at some point, but not quite there yet.  For now, I enjoy chicken and fish thank you very much.  I also adore coffee (still working on conquering that vice).

This conversation is actually about my own personal, discovery on how the foods we eat affect our ability to expand our light, vibrancy and evolve as conscious beings.

So I meditate.  In fact, on a regular basis.  I do it, so I don’t feel like crap as per my Guru’s orders, to keep me grounded, centered to connect with my divinity and truth so I don’t get caught up in the hoopla of the world.  And I gotta’ tell you, I feel freakin’ fantastic when I meditate, but it wasn’t always that way I might add.

Like most, I have a story.

My story consisted of inner chaos, karmic patterns that I battled with (and still do), a literal warfare between my Ego and Spirit, with what was Real vs. Imagined or in other words, between illusion vs. Truth and so on, until I finally had a breakdown, which led to a breakthrough, a full blown, Spiritual Awakening in fact, that riveted through every cell of my being.

The result, I became more spiritually aware, psychically attuned, and conscious.  And with that, my knowledge of Self started to expand while I witnessed some of my old patterns, one of them being food; I began to heal.

What I discovered, was that the cleaner my vessel was, in other words, when I ate “clean”, my connection to Spirit was so much stronger.  And talk about downloading some pretty, profound stuff at all whacky hours of the night, cranking up your happiness metre while invoking an unexplainable, peace that surpasseth all understanding (while in the midst of adversity I might add).

When I fell off the wagon on occasion with my eating habits however, (cause I am human and all), I noticed the following: creative blocks, scatteredness, confusion, my energy tanking, an increase of negative thoughts and emotions, disturbed sleep patterns, anxiety, skin blemishes and the list goes on and on.

Sound familiar?  I’m sure some of you can relate.

You see, I’ve come to the following conclusion.

“When you eat crap, you feed the darkness within you.”

Furthermore, every time we indulge in foods that we know are not good for us, we worship deception and choose to live in illusions vs. the truth about what’s best for us, and in this case, our Mind, Body & Spirit.  I know, some pretty, heavy, stuff.

And, guess what?  It’s all connected – everything.  Our thoughts, our words, what we choose to eat, expose ourselves to, everything.  All of it, is indicative of our level of consciousness and the expansiveness of light within us.

I know, crazytown, right!?  But it’s true.

Please know that I’m not in any way suggesting that we’re “bad” people when we eat crap, no that would be rather “dualistic” of me, “self righteous” and uber “judgmental” as the dark often has it’s place to lead us to the light.

What I’m implying rather, is that if we truly want to make a difference, we must first become a beacon of light and be the change.  And being the change in the case of food and consciousness, will require discipline, committment to well being as we feed our soul with the foods that light us up.

It will take practice my friends, but worth the effort as the world requires our presence to illuminate the atmosphere.

Are you in? Who’s with me?

Lightworkers rise up.  The time is now.  Lead from within, expand your light, Ascend.

Now your turn.  Vibing with this content or Need Advice?

Please feel free to share what you’re going through lovely.  Leave your heartfelt, Comments in the Blog and I’ll be sure to Reply.

Shine on my friends!


Abby xo





Procrastination. The Ego’s way of creating time…

Woman watching tv

I was driving in my car the other day, rehearsing a few things that I wanted to accomplish, one them being some writing deadlines that I had to meet, because come hell or high water, it had to get done.

And yet, this overpowering “pushy” voice in my head said “Screw it Abby, it’s a gorgeous, day out, go out and do something fun.”  And just for a hot minute, being the spontaneous, person that I am, I almost took the bait.

Who was that bossy, boisterous, voice in my head encouraging me to ditch my responsibilities?


The funny thing about it was that it wasn’t a gargantuous, task, at all.  Important yes, yet I felt this resistance in me that didn’t make any sense? (just for the record I did complete it by the way).

So now my question is?

Why do we entertain such “distractions”?  Why do we delay our progress?  Why do we choose mediocrity?

According to the ever so, brilliant, Spiritual Teacher, Byron Katie, her response is the following:

Procrastination is the Ego’s way of creating time.

Oh yes, but of course.  Why not create some time for some mindless, entertainment that delays us from reaching our goals or destiny for that matter.  Why not prolong our suffering?  And, while we’re at it, let’s throw in some mindless, television and gossip shall we, to keep things spicy ;)

Are you tucking, your tail between your legs right about now?

We’ve all been there at some point or another if we let our hair down.  But I’m more interested in the root cause of why we essentially, sabotage ourselves.  And so, I’ve come to the following conclusion.

We delay our greatness because we feel “Unworthy” and we’re afraid of our own power.

I mean, think back to a time when you really, wanted something, I mean really, badly.  I bet you’d cross an ocean and a few continents for that matter, to make it happen, wouldn’t you?

Yet our Ego’s get in the way, filled with “self limiting” beliefs such as doubt, fear and insecurities and we hesitate and make a “gazillion” excuses to accept mediocrity.  While our Spirit whispers gently behind the scenes reminding us of how truly, amazing we “Really are”, if we lived up to our highest, fullest, potential.

I’m convinced that this constant, tug-o-war within often prolongs our journey, unnecessarily.  Awareness of Self however, is the key to healing such “self sabotaging” behavior.  So on that note,

Here’s 3 practical, tips that have helped me on occasion, conquer this “self defeating” behavior called Procrastination:

1)  Witness your patterns through Stillness.  If we stopped the mindless chatter, going on in our heads once in a while, I’m sure we’d learn a thing or 2 about ourselves.  Once you’ve identified your patterns, call yourself out gently.  Don’t judge them, because what you resist, persists.  I’m not a “tough love” advocate for this very reason.  It often doesn’t work and makes one rebel.

2)  Focus on how you want to feel when it’s done.  Our emotions are powerful and when we channel them in a positive way, like in this instance, they have the power to pulverize our destructive, habits and propel us forward.  When you generate these, positive emotions, stay right there in your Mind, relish in it, imagine it….Ahhhhh doesn’t it feel good?  Don’t you feel energized, lighter and accomplished?

3)  Set earlier deadlines for yourself.  Let’s face it, some of us still carry the “exam crammer” in us and so I find that by tightening things up, it light’s a firecracker up “you know what”, and gets you going.  Believe you me, works like a charm.  Tried, tested and true. :)

Follow these tips whenever you feel compelled to delay your progress, and you’ll kiss procrastination goodbye once and for all!

Are you in, or are you in!?

Now your turn.  Need Advice?

I’d love to hear from you!

Please feel free to share what you’re going through in the Comment Box of the Blog and I’ll be sure to Reply.


Abby xo



1 2 3 15